if you're reading this... that means the auto direct is not working (again!!) :)

im moving out of my old blogspot hive and moving to a new place called wordpress nyehehehe :)

come.. visit me WindChimes or windchimes.wordpress.com

see you there!


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# watermark breathes out :: Thursday, September 07, 2006
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Thanks for making me this happy :)


"Don't Need The Sun To Shine "

It's been a while
But your smile always
Brightens up my day
I guess you know
Because it show
You can see it
On my face

Feels like
You've put a spell on me
Feels like
You've captured me
And honey, This is how I feel

Don't need the sun to shine
To make me smile
Don't care if it's dark outside
'Cause I've got you
And though the rain may fall
No I won't care at all
'Cause Honey, I know that I got you

Everyday there's a change
You bring out the best in me
My inner soul is what you know
That is how you speak to me
You seem to understand
You know just who I am
And honey, this is how I feel

Don't need the sun to shine
To make me smile
Don't care if it's dark outside
'Cause I've got you
And though the rain may fall
No I won't care at all
'Cause honey
I know that I got you

Don't need a rocket man
To help me touch the sky
I don't need to fly a plane
To get this high
Don't need to hitch a ride
When I could run a million miles
Yes I would, just to see you smile


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# watermark breathes out :: Friday, August 04, 2006
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Last weekend the Aprilfools together with our keychains (ahem!) had a blast in the Sand and Sun of Moalboal. We rented a house by the beach and spent two days of fun, music, food, chika, pictures and (of course!) music video.

We gave our own version of Friend's OST, and had a crazy time fooling around the cam. We know it will take quiet awhile before we'll have something like this again, since people are planning to venture on other places already.
To cap our stay, we placed our written (and drawn) wishes inside an empty bottle of Tequilla, planning to go back to that place (soonest would be next year), and see what have become of us (hehe in one year ? hmmm .. a lot! )

Life is good, and with friends around, makes it even greater.
Sometimes life is not that good, but wonderful friends makes it better.
My life's love and people i love were there... what more can i say ?! :)

Lov you guys! :)mwaaah

I'll be there for you by Rembrants

So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your jobs a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year
but..

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

You're still in bed at ten
And work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast
So far... things are goin' great
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these
Oh but she didn't tell you when the world has brought
You down to your knees that...

I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...

No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Seems you're the only one who knows
What it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the rest with
Someone I'll always laugh with
Even at my worst I'm best with you, yeah


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# watermark breathes out :: Tuesday, August 01, 2006
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Im sad. Well not bawling-my-eyes-out-with-mathcing-blank-stares-at-the-wall kind of sad... just sad. And crazy as it sounds, because im still feeling the after taste of the dream i had last night... or this morning. .. whichever applies... ambot... haaaaaaaay .. :(


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# watermark breathes out :: Thursday, July 20, 2006
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Eversince I've met james, my fascination with motorbikes resurrected. I don't get scared when we speed up or when we trail on a very bumpy road going uphill. I remember then when we were still "just-friends", that i would ask him if he could speed up a little... kay murag genggeng kaau ug dinaganan hahaha joke... he was being too careful man gud cause he thought i would freak out. hehe

Last night, i got out around 10 pm from the office cause i had to finish testing some 20,000 test items lang naman.. di masyadong marami hehehe. So james was waiting outside, and then we went to McDo cause he won't let me go home without feeding my tummy.


So there i was munching on my burger, and a few fries. And when we're on our way home na, he placed the uneaten pack of fries in the upside-down na helmet.. hehehe.. (lisod imaginon?? hehe, its like, nka hang ang helmet so there is this hollow part inside dba, so he placed the fries inside, like a basket bah.. )..

Anyway, as much as possible i don't wear helmet when i ride the bike (backride, i mean)...yeah yeah i know.. safety first... So a few blocks from our place, eh biglang may checkpoint... so he handed me that particular helmet, and me, without looking inside just put it over my head... and then.. .there goes the fries falling from my head hehehehe...

Buti n lng i didn't ask for salt or ketchup, it would have really been a blooper turned into a disaster hehehe... but in fairness, it was funny.

I couldn't contain my laughter while we we're getting near the checkpoint area. I was giggling on the side while he was showing the police man his registration docs and license. That police guy must have thought i'm some wacko girl. Hehehe.

I didn't take off the helmet till we arrived at my place, and when i did, there i see the flattened paper container of the fries hehe...

Now thats literally how i capped my day :)


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# watermark breathes out :: Wednesday, July 05, 2006
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He came at a time when i really needed a friend. He didn't came rushing into my life, He came, like a slow turning wind, not wanting to cause any change in me, he's just there. And i didnt really think of anything other than friendship to pull through what we have.
He's the wind, let him come and go.

Befriending the Wind

But that wind, understood my pain. That wind understood my fear. That wind understood what i needed more at that time. That wind held on to me, even if he didnt understand why. Why me. Why now. Why this way. And that wind stayed on, not rushing or demanding, just simply trying to get to know me.

That Wind is James. And he got to know me, and me him.

Through the friendship, he had been nothing but a good good friend to me and the people around me. Never failed to be there, a shoulder, a companion, a good listener... one of the most unselfish person i know. And yet... i held back even to a friend. For fear of getting hurt, for fear of hurting him.
But he held on, not just to me... but to God... :)


Probably one of the sweetest person i know. He says whats on his mind. He tells you whats in his heart. And yet... it took awhile for him to tell me what he feels, though its quite obvious when i got enough bouquets from him to have my own flowershop. Flowers as early as 6 in the morning personally delivered at my place to greet me when i wake up, and 3 in the morning as i got off from my overtime work at the office. (hehehe sorry hon ha, share ko lng). That time our emails we're even closed with "take care friend!", "back pats for you friend!". Friend friend ka dyan! =)

WindChimes

I remember the first time he asked me out, i said yes, only to take it back the following day. (remember that hon?) It was really bitchy of me, but believe me, i have my own poor excuses (hehe).

When i was in japan, he would call me at night just to say goodnight, and in the morning he would be my wake up call. (Lagi lagi, dli ka ganahan nako.. hehe.. dli obvious). There was even one time when i was late in getting back to the hotel and this conversation transpired between him and the japanese front-desk :



(after calling the hotel for the nth time)

james : Are you sure she's not around???
japanese-front-desk : No sir, she's dianne!!!

(heheh.. get it guys?)

I like going to church with him. sharing my faith with him. Talking about God and faith without shoving it down our throat or being too religious about the whole thing. I like going to the mountaintop with him, and just let our eyes be emersed with the view, and let our worries be taken by the scenery and the wind. I like sharing one dinner plate with him when we go out. I like when he corrects me of certain things, and when we listen to each other's angst and frustrations and dreams. He knew that I'm a pathetic drinker, and i know he's uncomfortable with gays which is funny cause he would sometimes intentionally act like one for comic effect (but he has nothing against them.. hehehe..). And i like playing chikicha with him... and beating his ass off on almost every game. (haahah)

... I love ...

And then came a time that he told me about what he feels.

And i said .. "No."

I know how much that must have hurt him. And it hurts me too, to know that i hurt him. But at that time. I don't feel "it" yet. That feeling of wanting to commit myself into a relationship with someone again. That feeling of willingness to risk my trust, my heart... my self... with someone. For someone who takes risks so easily and loves throwing caution to the wind... i chickened out. Cause i gave God my heart to be fixed, and I don't want to take it back now.... cause i have always been thinking that it's still under repair... like it's admitted in the ICU and is under observation till He says its ok for it go out.

I do feel something for him.. but im not sure at that time what to call it. And though sometimes its tempting to test fate, there are also some times where when there's doubt... then don't.

I cried that night. Though he doesn't know it. I was confuse. I was sad. I don't want him to go, but i can't ask him to stay. Drama sah? Bitaw. hehe. And on that night
Wind's Touch was written.

I asked him to let me go.

And he let me go and let God deal with what he feels for me, and what i feel for him. But the friendship stayed on. And the friendship grew. And blossomed... :)

Blind Faith

Fastforward, after much praying and "Lord-take-away-this-feeling-if-its-not-meant-to-be" lines... we found ourselves in the place where he once he told me that he love me and i said "i'm sorry".

And there, He told me again... he asked me again...

And i said "yes."....

but took it back after 10 minutes. Ten freaking minutes!!

Yes, i know what you're thinking. but you should have been there when that happened. For some unexplainable reason... its like some tiny voice is saying "Wait a little more. It will all be beautiful soon."
Crazy? yes.

I cried, He cried, two crazy couple under the starlit sky, just exchanged i love you's... then agreed to wait just a little more. Choosing to trust faith. For faith is being sure of what you hope for, and being certain of things you do not see.

And we're peaceful. We understood. We just trust.
Ever felt that? Things don't make sense, and yet you're peaceful inside.

We were happy.

I am.

He is, but he can't help but ask for more than that.

It doesnt make sense then, but looking back at it now... we both see the bigger picture, and whose hand was at work during that time.

Preparing Goodbye

Fastforward again, i didn't know that he was preparing himself to totally let me go. To give me some space to think. That perhaps He was given to me and i to him , only for a certain season. He would be saying goodbye without actually saying it to me, he thought, he would try to take good care of me for the last time...

and that was during my birthday.

He gave me the best birthday surprise ever. It was his way of saying goodbye without me knowing. From balloons, to flowers, to fireworks. But the best gift that night for me, is him. And that night, before driving me home. I held his hand. Cause i just really want to. All the things i couldn't find the words to say...

And we have never held hands before. Not once. All that time. All the oppurtunities hehehe... (ambot allergic cguro na cya nako hehehe.. soft naman hands ko ah! )...

and then... all thoughts about goodbyes went flying away... ( Now he tells me, that that one touch of the hand did it... caught him in the nick of time... so he says.. SUs! if i've known earlier hehehe..)

... i thought then... "i've fallen for this man... and i respect him... and i trust him... and yes... more than anything else... i love him" (cheeessy!! nanindog ako balahibo heheh)

... and he thought (feel ko lng, this is what he thought.. hehe .. bitaw.. he told me after na)...
"i love her... and im gonna fight for what i feel for her..."




Beautiful Wind


and so.. fast forward again...

Without him asking... i gave the answer... heheh... and we just owe it all to Him who took it in His hand to write our own story... :)



Even a friend had a dream about us. Perhaps it is a sign. Yeah maybe. I wasn't really asking for a sign, but im encouraged with the thought that people who matters to me got my back on this one. It's different this time. And I'm not the only one who's said so.

Just the other day, i had this short exchange with a friend and Im just encouraged and thankful...


me : its nice to find someone who brings out the best in you and you in him.. char! Mao c ATTY na imo weee!
her : ehehe.. yea... mao jd na ako gus2 (thats wat i lyk too)...
well.. nahan ko rn sa epek sa imo (and well,now i like the effect that it has on u)
me : so far.. so good hehe :)
her : it was differnt b4
me : hell yea! hehe.. looking back now...
her : taysa naglisud ko compose sa ako ingnon
(im hving a hard time composing what i wanna say)
me : sauna, entered den i prayed (before, i entered and then i prayed about it),but this time, i prayed before i entered ... makes a lot of difference... no baggages
her : wat i'm trying to say is... it shows..
murag d love ur getting from d relationship ba ky u r able to share it to ppl... not jst to u
me : waaaah.. thanks ... so ATTY na imuha ha! heheh ako bridge!!


(hehhe... she would kill me if she read this one.. but ATTY has my vote!)




I'm not saying that what we have is perfect (its far from it) or that we are faultless or that we didnt make mistakes along the way... we did, a lot. And we will be making a lot more as we make this new found journey work, and im sure its gonna be hell a lot of fun. I'm sure its not gonna be a boring ride. But what im saying is, I'm grateful to Him who makes us overflow. Overflow not just with the love that we have for each other, but even to people around us.
And all of this, brings out the best in each of us.

We let go of the paintbrush, and He painted a picture in the canvas where both of us we're drawn. And His picture is much more beautiful than what our feeble hands can ever dream to paint. And the picture... is far from finished...It is still a work in progress =)

Truly, when God closes a door, He opens up the whole roof just to let you know how much He is involved in every facet of your life. And now whenever I look back, that close door is nothing more than a peephole, so small compared to what He has in stored for us.




How sweet it is to be loved by you...


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# watermark breathes out :: Tuesday, July 04, 2006
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Just last sunday Manny "Pacman" Pacquiao wowed the world with yet another winning performance in the boxing ring. Another hat's off to one of the modern heroes in our country. Throughout his fame and many boxing titles won around the world, he has remained humble, soft spoken, and never fails to remind the Filipino people how this is his way of bringing honor to the country, his way of making a difference. I don't know Pacquiao that well, nor have i met him personally, all these information, i get from what i see in the TV and what i read in the paper. Manny is one of our televised heroes.
And a well-deserved title at that.







A hero, by definition, is someone who helps create breakthroughs, set milestones and makes a difference in the lives of the people around them.

There are many untelevised heroes in our lives. Heroes much closer to heart than Pacquiao or Rizal, or any other popularized individuals.

In my own life, i have been blessed by so many heroes that had helped shaped (hehehe... well.. im gaining weight now so perhaps they have a hand on that too hehe)... who i am right now...




My Papa

Someone who always believed that i can do it. Who had always been there. Who had been my first teacher. Who had taught me my first poetry. Who makes his own version of study materials to help me review, and throws questions at me during breakfast before my exams to help me remember things i studied the night before. Who worked 7 days a week just to make ends meet. Who cracks joke on almost about anything. Who makes his own fairytale stories for us to listen to before we sleep. Who treats me and my sister like princesses. Who cried in front of me when he and mama parted ways. Who wiped my tears and told me what im worth when i had my first heartbreak.

A softspoken person, who turns the other cheek when confronted with hurtful words. Someone whom i love dearly... I have never been more proud to be called his daughter.

Ate J9

A walking canvass! Truly an artist in and out. An artist for God. An ambassador for the cause of the children (no wonder she was chosen by UNICEF). I met her when I was in 4th year highschool, she was then a freelance artist and a full time staff of Victory Christian Fellowship. Not your typical Christian girl, but her passion is just so evident in all her works, in her speech... in her life. She had been my private art teacher hehehe... for free! She would pick me up from our place, and we'd go up to Cebu hills on her scooter, and spend the afternoons teaching me how to sketch, paint, color; still-life was my first lesson. (Hehe ayaw lng ko ipadraw te je ha, my drawings sucks hehehe). But what she imparted to me, no one can ever take... the lessons in life she passed on to me during every talk that we had. More than just listening to my teenage angst and hopeful dreams, she imparted hope and faith. I thought I knew God well... until i met ate J9 ... who showed me that there is so much about Him to discover and enjoy.

Ate J9, thank you for making a difference in my life. I am ever grateful. (waaaaah i miss you! Hope to see you when you get back from China)

Friends

hahaha... grabe ka generic sah!

bitaw... These are the people who stayed with me through ups and downs, laughed with me through korny moments and well-prepared jokes, gave me a well-deserved kick in the butt when i really needed it.

Aprilfools. One of the pinakalaagan group i've been with. Three wonderful years of friendship which started as NEC trainees batch April of 2003. Software Engineers na nagkahalo-halo lang ang kabuang. Mga walay libog na tao na palangga kaau nako. Hehehe do doubt we deserve the Best Barkada award last year. :)

My Small Group family. Girls i meet with every friday night at Bo's coffee club at IT Park. Women of destiny and purpose (naks! sounds heavy!! hehe). Axie, Patty, Anne, Michelle, Kathy, Nice, Jen wid baby Anton and Mimi. These are the people who pour out our lives to one another, and celebrates life to the fullest!

Si Ruby. Akong ate sa INC-PM sauna. Mao jud ni ako first ate2x sa NSP, since cya ako first boss2x after i was assigned to my own project group sa office. She's no longer with NEC right now, and she's no longer single na sad hehe... pero she will always be my ("ate") ruby. I miss our talks every lunch time, our hilak2x na session... haaaay. She is a maldita when someone would hurt me, she screens all my prospects (naa lay isa nga wala niya na screen, mao to palpak hahaha), and yes, even magbridge pa (eheh... pasayloa na to cya rubay...). I know she is happily married right now, and I'm gonna be there on her church wedding when she gets back from Japan. Brayt ni nga programmer. hehe.

Jang, Braille, Abad, Rye, Dwight, Juvy, Mrs. Wade. These are just some of the UP Computer Science classmates (except Ms. Wade) whose friendship trancends beyond the classroom. Different personalities, where comp. sci. is never a first option as a course in college, bonded together. And Ms.Wade... geesh!.. terror teacher heehehe... but one of the best... one of the very best teacher i ever had... and now a very good friend. Back in college we consulted her about our thesis, our class schedules, our grades... but now, we consult her about life, love, career. A well-accomplished woman, who is a very good friend of mine. And had always had my best interest in heart.

James

Who showed me a different face of love. And for giving me this happiness i have right now.


These are just some of the heroes that i have been blessed with. There are still a lot more i wasnt able to note in this entry, and yet i am forever grateful for their mark in my life. Untelevised may be the difference you made in me, but they are well appreciated and tattooed in my heart.

You are all my hero =)




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# watermark breathes out :: Monday, July 03, 2006
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i had been feeling a little under the weather lately. A few hacheeww here and there had been my regular OST for the past few days. Been told by my self-appointed personal doc (hehhe) his own diagnosis of why this is so, which i wouldn't even try to list down cause that in itself is another whole blog entry.

Just before lunch i was called at the lobby... and yey!!! Strawberry jam , Peanut butter and a bunch of crackers where there waiting for me to munch on hehehe... With matching "get well soon" card taped on the jam jar pa.. how sweet can that be.. really a sweet surprise :) thanks james for the sweet treat!!

haaay... unsaon na lng jud hehehe.. ahihihi
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later that lunch i braved the scorching heat of the 12 o'clock sun and went to the bank to incash a check. I dropped by NGenius at the IT Park to buy an enclosure for the HDD which i had neil brought for me from japan. I arrived at the bank around 12:15 i guess, and there was only one teller on service. I got my priority number (which was 118) and took a seat (of all places!!!) beside two lovebirds which really put a whole new meaning to the word PDA, the woman ( to call her a girl would be an abomination to the word) which i think is around mid30s has her hands all over the boy (yes, a boy.. and il say it again.. a boy) who later i learned is turning 20 this month (who wouldn't know since she's been teasing him about it for everyone in the bank to hear.. )... duh?!

anyway... so there i was with the 118 number in my hand while the Lord-please-help-her-and-make-her-work-faster one and only teller is servicing number 75... uhuhuhu..... i know im doomed.. im stuck here until the next ice age... Unsaon ta man nga i need the cash badly!!

It was already half past one when my number was flashed (and yes... la ko choice but to render undertime sa work)... only to be told that they need my SSS ID before i could in-cash my check... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.... all that waiting for nothing!!!!!!!!!!!!

so with a heavy heart i went back to NGenius to get my HDD only to be told that i have to pay extra cause they need to find a work around cause none of their units could detect my hard disk. So what choice do i have but to leave it there for them to work on it, and just have to claim it after office when, hopefully, they could get it up and working.

So i went back to the office feeling feverish and with a heavy heart. Good thing my appointment that evening was cancelled cause im begging to just crawl back to my bed and sleep the rest of my life off... (OA Noh? hehhee)...

Around 7, james and i went to claim my HDD at NGenius only to know that they just can't find a way to make it well... huhuhuhu... James would have gladly taken me home that moment, but you know me naman... I just have to try one last time. So on to SM we go looking for a second opinion, which to our dismay is the same as the first.

I went home feverish and dismayed, thinking this is just not one of my favorite days.

huhhuhu.. strawberry jam anyone?


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# watermark breathes out :: Tuesday, June 06, 2006
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waaaaaahh so busy with work stuff ...

i got this really wonderful surprise last night. After taking me home safely amidst the rain, he took out this personalized box which he painstakingly made for me a day before. And inside is a necklace and a pair of earrings... hehehe i thought ring na! eheheh joke!! :)



Thanks for the wonderful surprise. Thanks for taking care of me. Thanks for being there. Thanks.. :)

Waiting for the light to turn green :) *wink*

pictures taken by yours truly


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# watermark breathes out :: Friday, June 02, 2006
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I watched Gary and Zsazsa's Faces of Love Concert last night at Waterfront. I was kind of disappointed before the concert began cause tickets were not sold out as expected. There were few empty seats in the audience area. But nevertheless, it was great. The performance, the music, the guests... t'was superb. The show showcased the many faces of life and love. And I’m glad I was invited to watch it by the person im with that night.

In our dealings with life and love... our heart and mind plays vital roles on where our happiness lies. Oftentimes, the stirring wheel is passed between these two points. One wanting to be on the driver seat and the other just have to sit in the back.

The mind most often navigating on the logical side, where the probability of security is high. It is where risk management takes place.
The heart on the other hand stirs us in the direction where we take flight with the wind. Where we risks with half closed eyes.. Sometimes totally blind.



Sometimes the other wins.. Sometimes the other does. And in between the heart and the mind ... is the face. The face that mirrors which of the two is hailed victor in that round. The face reflects the battle that rages inside the man who has a beating heart and a stubborn mind. None of the two is right or wrong. The heart feels, the mind thinks... and the face expresses.

And when you get to know the person behind the face... it becomes more than just a pair of eyes, a nose, lips or cheeks. It becomes someone whose pain you can relate to, and whose happiness you hope to share.

When faced with the most severe of pain, both the mind and the heart cringe inside the man. And the eyes cry out the pain, and the face shows the sadness. When in moments of joy and indescribable happiness, the lips curve into a smile that reflects the peace and serenity that the eyes mirror. When in indecision in the crossroads of life, one couldn’t even describe the blank stare and unrestful eyes.

The mind often is the battleground and the Heart is the decision maker. These two seems to be always on either side of the fence. Opposing, questioning and analyzing the decision that the other makes. Always wanting to be the driver.

But the driver seat is reserved not to the mind, nor the heart. The one who should navigate should not solely be one of the two. The stirring wheel is licensed only to be used by the one who really knows how to drive... and where to go. It is reserved to the one who takes both our heart's desires and mind's fears into His hand. He should be the one driving. Not us. When He takes the driver seat, our heart rests in knowing that its desires are known and our mind is silent knowing that its fears and uncertainties are understood.

And when He drives...
... The face mirrors His strength when in the deepest of valleys
... And reflects His glory when in the highest of heights.

And the heart and mind need not fret nor fight, knowing that He's the one behind the wheel.



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# watermark breathes out :: Thursday, May 11, 2006
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it's my birthday! It's my birthday!

Overwhelmed

Sunday morning and im here in our kitchen writing an entry on what had been the best surprises (yes, plural) i had ever received. I hope this post could do justice on just how wonderful my 24th birthday had been. But i know that words would just pale in comparison on how grateful i am ... as in.... im still floating. I feel so loved and just so blessed. God is sooo good!

The eve

Dee day, as what my friends call it, falls on a regular saturday. No work for most people. Rest day for the majority of my close friends whom i wanted to share my birthday with. The night before, as per Friday activity, we had our cellgroup chika at IT Park together with our ever kiat friday small group. Fridays just seem a little incomplete without these weekly meetings we have. Whatever my mood is, ecstatic, disgusted, frustrated, devasted, inspired or just over the top... cell groups just has to be part of my weekly routine. :)


Anyway.. so after our friday chika.. I joined axie, nikki, patty, charlie, and james for dinner at chowa. Said our goodbyes, picked up my laptop bat at the office, and was taken home by james. Only to be surprised when i turned on the light in my room to see a beautiful bouquet of flowers on my bed with a bunch of balloons to go with it... No wonder the giver was late for his meeting.. he was somewhere else preparing this little surprise. hehehe... (Thanks again.. na naman ...hehe :) )

While i was feasting my eyes to my latest surprise, checking out juvy's gift which she gave me earlier that afternoon (thanks for the bag juv'.. LOVE IT!!!), answering the barrage of well wishers on my cellphone... i was also playing Diablo2 on my pc...and then i thot i heard my name. It was a bit after midnightalready and it was quiet outside. Again i heard that distant sound of what i really believe is someone calling my name.

You see, as what i've mentioned on some earlier post, me and my family moved to a different place. Beside our house is an emmision center, which really is just a vacant lot. So i opened my window and looked outside, only to see my friends from the aprilfools in the middle of the vacant lot.. practically shouting my name. None of my office friends had ever been to my new place. Later on did i knew that they really thought they got lost, and all they had is a sketch given to them by another friend of mine. And to sort things out, they just shouted my name hoping that one of the houses there would be ours. Hehe, i was so surprised that it took awhile to register to me that my room is in disarray!!! Kaulaw!



So i went down, opened the gate and there they were... Patty, Jaspher, Noel (on his first night back home from japan), Neil and Anne, carrying a birthday cake and did a christmas carolling in may heheh. Here's a bit of the lyrics:

Oh holy night, the stars are brightly shining
It is the night
of our dear, Didee's birth

hehehe.. awwwwwwwww.... too bad my tears didnt fall down on cue. But i was just so surprised! It was really so sweet of them to have thought about it. We went to my room and enjoyed my birthday cake (after making a wish and blowing the candle). Then japsher (or was it neil?) saw my 10 year old ice breaker and started reading out the questions. From there, our talks just went from crazy to serious, from things about office to life. To Noel's dance showdown in Japan, to an officemate's lovelife (chismoso! hehehe). Before we know it, it was getting late already and they have to go home na. A hug, a thank you and a kiss in the cheek is all i could give them before they went home. I am just so touched with the little surprise they prepared.

Only when i got back in my room and closed the door did the tears started showing. Nagdrama na sad ko ehehhee. This i did while cleaning the saucers and glasses we used in our mini cake festival in our room. (sorry noel ha, wala mi coke heheheh).

Fireworks lights things Up

The following morning, i woke up and realized i forgot to order food in advance for our mini salo-salo that night. I just invited close friends that i really wanted to spend my birthday with. Different groups of people who are never indespensable in my life. People who've been there for me and i for them. People who've seen and accepted me at my worst, and believed in me at my best. From my bayot friends to my church friends to my office buds to my childhood chum to my new found special friend.. each uniquely treasured by me. (Naks! ayaw palag!) A dinner and night filled with talk and fun would have been perfectfor me already. That's why i was left speechless with what two people who had spearheaded the surprise prepared.


When me and my sister got to City View place (which i chose because of the scenic view of the city lights at night, and dli mn ko mkaafford sa Marco Polo Hotel hehehe.. so sa kilid n lng na resto), we were wondering cause i dont see any reserved table. So i approached the one in-charged and drama kaau ug tubag .. "Ma'am, just follow the balloons". haha...


only then did i noticed the yellow and pink ballons on the far side of the resto leading to the lower area of the place. So follow the ballons i did, and there i find vanessa, jang, gerard, braille and bryan waiting. Hehehe.. it was a miracle na gali nga dli ni sila late hehehe... (i miss ryan.. he has to work man). More balloons were tied surrounding our little nook in the resto. eighteen balloons all in all. Flowers were set on the table with matching scattered petals pa. Thanks Bri and james! These two hunks were the culprit why my birthday was a little bit more special. :)

We waited for the rest of the peeps to arrived then i had the food served. It was just a simple dinner with friends and loved ones. just enough to make me happy on my day.


After dinner and some small talk, i was blinfolded and was led to the other end of the resto. I could hear their laughter and cajoling. When the blindfold was taken off, infront me was my cake with four lighted candles...(the cake had my face printed on top hehe.. now i can officially say.. "want a piece of me?" hehehe)... they all sang a happy birthday song (standard kaau ang song noh? hehe)... i made a wish... mostly a thank you to God for everything... and blew on the candles.

And then..... SURPRISE!!!! Fountain fireworks were lighted with matching mga kwitis pa hahahaha...
grabeh... the band and the other customers even stood up and watched the whole thing happend.

Surprised and happy would be an understatement to what i felt that time. Thanks thanks thanks so much!



Thanks sweetvoice... u said ur gonna make this birthday extra special.. and that you did. :) Thank bri... 24 years of friendship.. and more to come! Thanks Axie, Alex, Charlie, meo, Jing, Jang. Malaysia, Braille, Abad, Patty, Anne, Neil, Nikki and Kobe for sharing my day! Thanks Kat for being the best sister ever, i love you tremendously (even if makasab-an taka usahay)

Thank you Lord! The best ka talaga!

I may not have everything... but God sure knows what tickles my heart... and that makes everything a little bit more special.


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# watermark breathes out :: Sunday, May 07, 2006
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Lily and Lloyd, Lots of Love


I was invited to host a friend's wedding reception last weekend. It was just a perfect summer weekend getaway. It was held at Bohol. Home of my all time favorite white sand and cool waters, Panglao!

Both the bride and the groom are good friends of mine. And playing even a small part on their day of celebration was just something i couldn't say no to. The wedding was held in an airconditioned chappel/church near the bride's place. It was quiet an intimate wedding. Just Families and friends from both sides of the couple. Though majority of the friends side came from our office since both of them came from NEC. Lloyd is cuurently being assigned in NEC Japan for HR transfer, while Lily just rendered her resignation last March.

Lily was really really pretty in her wedding gown, and a bit teary-eyed while she had her walk in the aisle. A long trail of whites followed her walk towards the altar.


The view at the hotel where the reception was held was just breathtaking. A scenic view of all the greens and blues, in vivid colors, just added to the already very wonderful day.

I just love weddings! Every little detail gets magnified and even the negative vibes just shut off. It was really a perfect day for a wedding! :)

I hosted the program during reception with my dear friend Leon. Whom I'm already very comfortable with, we did a hosting stint a year ago on a mini valentine gig back at the city. Incidentally, Leon was a good friend of Lloyd way back college. So Im glad we did the part, and did (i hope) a good job in making the day an extra unforgettable one.

Handbags

Duh... i can't get the proper term for that little messages u get to pull from the wedding cake... so for lack of a better term... i'll call it fortune cake. Hehhe.. from the widely known fortune cookie which in a way have the same principle with the subject at hand. hehehe.


Anyway, so this is what my fortune cake has for me :
"Handbag :
Truly a lady's indispensable that someday you'll receive one is surely probable"

Ewan.. but kinilig ako with this one hehhehe. So after doing a little tinkering ... i came up with the following for the possible meaning:

1. Since I've always been crazy about bags and purses, maybe (yes maybe... ahem maybe hehhe) someone would get me one soon (ahem... my birthday is coming up hahha)

2. I am reminded of my worth. Char naman! hehe. And this goes out to all who are reading this. Sometimes you just get to find that perfect handbag or wallet or a pair of jeans... and you say to yourself, "This one is for keeps. The price may be high, but its a keeper."
And each of us is someone's "for keeps". Each of us is worth something which even to us seems hard to comprehend. God thinks highly of us, and that's how special we are. If we can get the attention of the maker of eveything... then who are we to doubt our ability to catch the attention of those that are under His care. ayt? hehehe.. We are special in our unique, crazy, funny way. And that makes us "for keeps". And we are definitely worth it.

3. My "for keeps" is up and coming! hehehe.

Sands

My saturday evening was topped with a full body massage right there in the heavenly sands of Panglao. Saraaap!!!! As in!

After enjoying a sumptuous dinner by the beachfront, be entertained by the wacky antics of the Abtik boys and magic card tricks of KaOtep... nothing could beat a soothing massage to capped the night.

With a sarong on my back, shirt off, my bikini top on, i put myself under the skillful hands of the massage therapist (o diba sosyal and term para kay manang! hehehe). And nothing could ever beat the vast sky of Panglao beach, and just the sound of the waves on the shore to serenade us, just makes it all so PERFECT!


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# watermark breathes out :: Tuesday, May 02, 2006
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Its Aprilfools day!!

Nope this is not a delayed April 1 post. It's Aprilfools Third year anniversary here at our office.

From 26 young, vibrant, cute, gorgeous, sexy, creative, wacky and fun individuals from different parts of the philippines...April 21,2003 batch of Trainees... came the Aprilfools! (*insert fireworks hehe*)



To celebrate our TREEsary (3years.. three=tree corny noh? hehehe...) we are all dressed in brown. Mura mi ug mga brownian movement, adn we'll be having a dine out later. Not much of a feast or celebration though cause a handful of fools are not in the country right now.. so we will be having a 2nd celeb when they got back.. and of course.. their treat! hehe

Thanks so much guys for the friendship. Ilove you soooo much .. mwahmuch!


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# watermark breathes out :: Friday, April 21, 2006
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GOAL!

I love this movie ! Not that the cutie Kuno Becker who played the character of Santiago Munez didnt help a bit.. hehehe.. :)
It is a feel good movie, one where you know that things will eventually work out for the main character. And you just wait there, with your mind not really doing a behind the scene what-could-be-next analysis. But that didnt count as a negative vote though, cause there's just a bunch of things that you get to be reminded of while watching the film.

I highly recommend it, thats why the following day, the DVD ia already out of my hand hehehe.


Frightmare
One thing i noticed lately with regards to my buying of DVDs is that ... (1.) I usually look for horor films (2.) I rarely leave without buying at least one horror flick.And just yesterday while surveying my purchase, i noticed that i already have two 5 in 1 Horror movie marathon...

so i guess that explains the nightmare i had last nyt. I've been watching quite a lot of horror flicks lately (thrice this week.. err thats a lot right??)... Just when my sister and i had enough of scary movies and switched to feeding our player with the our all-time favorite Finding Neverland, I had that nightmare!!

It was really scary .. I'm telling you! I couldn't tell you the details here because.. hmm.. well... ok.. i don't remember. (ewww.. isnt thsi what adam said in Ring2 when his mom asked him what his nightmare was about, when in fact he dreamt about samara!). well it's a good thing though.. cause.. i wouldn't want to relive it again. It was just horrifying. I woke up at 3 am (waaaah! 3 am! isnt that the time that Emily Rose woke up to find 6 demons possessing her)...

All i remember was the feeling of just wanting to get out of the whole thing. i woke up, with my heart beating so fast, turned on the lights and music, then went back to bed. That did the trick, and i once again have my nightmare-less sleep.

gee.. i should really lie low a bit into this horror flick fascination.. hmmm.. well.. maybe ... not this week.... hehehe..


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# watermark breathes out :: Wednesday, April 12, 2006
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twinkle twinkle
my sweet dear
hope you're fine
though im not near
watch the stars
right now, tonight
forming rhythms
in the sky
they will watch you
as you nap
wait for the sun
till you wake up


:)

have a sweet sweet night everyone :D


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# watermark breathes out :: Saturday, April 08, 2006
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Not even a whisper
has such
comforting
touch
that has granted
me haven
in an
otherwise
unresting walk.
Not even any
memory
has granted me
such sweet blossoms
in my early
morning
wakefulness.
Not even my
haunting thoughts
had held me
in a speechless
smile
knowing tomorrow's
going to be
a better one.
Not even me
can keep the wind
from coming in,
blowing my way,
taking me,
making me its own.


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# watermark breathes out :: Friday, April 07, 2006
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My family and i moved to a new place last weekend. Moving in to a new turf is not that easy (even if in our case, its just a few blocks away). But we forgot all about that cause we are just so excited to start again in our new home. Another blessing indeed. I can't wait to take out all the stuff from the boxes. hehehe.

And man oh man! we can't believe how many boxes i used for the stuff in my room. Here's the formula for that:

#of boxes i used = #of boxes for papa + # of boxes for kat

hehehe... little stuff that had accumulated throughout the years.
I had fun cleaning out and sorting out the things we have :
1. which one needs to stay
2. which one needs to go
3. which one is still under negotiation =)
4. which one has to be given away

Hehe and now, whenever im at the mall or wherever and saw a pretty lil thing, i have to stop, go near and try to imagine where it would look good in our new place.

"hmmm.. this lamp would really look good on the side table.."

"perfect! perfect center table! WHAT! 5,000!... not so perfect after all!"

hehehe.. if only we have all the money to splurge mwhehehe... but hey, i got to find some really good pieces at a very reasonable price.

very early sunday morning, while sleeping in my bed amidst the chaos in my room (too exhausted to finish unpacking)... i woke up to find a very beautiful bouquet at my side. Waaaah! 'Twas a really sweet surprise...

just the perfect way to start my day :)

thanks for the blossoms :)


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# watermark breathes out :: Monday, April 03, 2006
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early morning flight

Last sunday, i was up so early to prepare myself for an early flight going to the land of nihon-jins. A few weeks earlier, i got an invitation for a business trip for our company in japan, and now the day has come. It had been a tiring time at the office. With the project release, and the pressure getting to you. Na blackout jud ko sa ako gibuhat. but anyhow, im here now and im getting my naturally red cheeks from cold hehe...

setting off

My family went with me to see me off. i miss my popsicles and siskulit , as in!
just when i was about to check-in my stuff, i gave my sister and papa a good hug. I couldn't help but smile when i look at my papa after that. Here he is just seeing me off to a flight to japan, and it seems like he's handing me over for marriage. hehe. I feel like crying too. Im gonna miss them. I know its not that long. But this will be the longest time il be away from my family physically.

good thing that when i got here.. me and my sis emailed each other as often as we can. She prints out the emails for my papa to read, and she said he reads it again and again till he falls asleep. And my sis took all my pillows from my room so she could sleep with them, and somehow make herself feel that im just there beside her.

I havent always had the best in things... but my family means a lot to me more than anything. We have been through a lot, and we have just been blessed to have each other.

I miss them so.

Baby's cry

The monitor in front of me says were flying over the pacific when the baby at the back let out a good cry. The mom who i cannot see from where im seated started whispering comforting words to the baby. From what im hearing, i couldnt tell if the mom is a filipina or a japanese. All i could hear were "shhh" and "hmmmm".
If only all pain could be erased by a simple "shhhh" and "hmmmmm". Then life will be a lot simplier.

But what i realized... there are a lot of ways that God gives us His "shhhh" and "hmmmm". A lot of ways were He says "Im here, Hush now". And thats the comfort that we have, we can just cry out like a baby before Him, and He would never leave you till He has hushed out each cry. He would never leave you broken. He would never leave you, thats it. Amazing how He makes so many things around you overflow just to let you see just how blessed you are. How He can magnify whatever strength you have left in you. Hahayyy... hehehe.

Thank you God for the "Hush now...".

hehe .. shucks oi .. ka seryos nako .. bitaw.. im just amazed at how sweet He could be. mao diay cguro sweet ko.. ahihihi... yoshi!


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# watermark breathes out :: Wednesday, March 08, 2006
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Am so far away from home now...
this will be my place for the next few weeks...


posts about my current journey will be up soon... =)



pictures shows view from my hotel window...
and the one near Tokyo Tower

[update under construction]


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# watermark breathes out :: Monday, March 06, 2006
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the title above "Sharp (#) UnDefine"... would be the best way to describe how my conversation with a certain frend started at the dawn of last saturday while rendering overtime at the office. The identity of this person, as per request, is to be kept in utmost secrecy by yours truly.. or else i would have to pay the consequence of having my business trip invitation to Japan be considered null and void or be deported back to the country during my stay there *gulp!* (hehehe... that is how influential this friend of mine is).

I sincerely believe (all 5"6 of me, if God permits that I grow a couple of inches more... dream on di! hehe) that this person truly is gifted with a Wondering Mind (daghan kaau ni siya ug giwonder) and would soon be known as someone who will provide us with the know-how and how-to's in our otherwise too complicated life... hehehe.. someone who pioneers the new breed of minds and talents of the new millennium... and a man in the crossroad of his life *wink!*...

so here are some upcoming books that will soon beat Harry Potter's best selling title and will bombard the stands of your nearest bookstores!!!!

(i am responsible for some of the titles but the great mind behind these is no one else
but the great he-who-must-not-be-named... haha)



How to get closer, when you are already very near
- a book about space

What to do when you already have done it
- a book about defined movements.

how to complicate things the complicated way
- a simple book

how not to say what you dont want to say
- a book about saying

How not to show what you want to show
- a book about hiding place.

How To Know What You Dont Want To Know
- a book about knowledge

How To Keep Them Awake... while you are sleeping
- a book about happiness at their expense

How To Keep Them Asking For More... when you haven't given any
- a book about give and take

When d wrong one loves u right
- a book by celine dion

When the righ one dumps you
- second book of celine dion

when the wrong one got it right
- a book about when to keep right

What To Expect when you least expect it
- a book about great expectations

What to say when you want to say nothing at all
- a book about muteness.

when to talk when ur mouth is full
- a book about healthy appetite

What to watch out for when you can't see anything
- a book about blindness

what to look for when ur not looking
- a book about overseeing

What To Want When You Want Nothing
- a book about greediness

When To Stop When You Haven't Started Yet
- a book abou traffic lights

What to look for when nothing's missing
- a book about hide-n-seek

Who to look for when she is already there.
- a book abount the person

What To Say When You Already Did.
- a book about traps

how to react when you dont want to
- a book about being proactive.

what to say to keep you from not saying it
- abook about DKI

What To Feel When You Have Already Felt It.
- a book about feelers.





There you have it ladies and gentlemen... just a few samples of what wandering thoughts could produce. Grab a copy now and learn the simple steps on how to complicate things, the complicated way.

There's one title though that i definitely would buy once it is out in the market... and the author had provided me with a few snapshots of what the book was all about... "How To Lose a Guy and Find a Replacement" hehehe...

i hope my trip is still on after posting this.. *gulp!*

nytnyt!


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# watermark breathes out :: Monday, February 27, 2006
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